If You Love Me This Might Hurt

Dates and Times

Thu 17 - Sat 19 Oct 2019 at 7.15pm

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Ticket information

£8 (work-in-progress)

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Presented by Matty May 


Matty May was conceived during a drunken one night stand on his Nan’s settee in July 1988, since then he has tried to kill himself three times.

If You Love Me This Might Hurt is an uncomfortable and funny show about rage, suicide and mental health. In his debut solo show, join Matty as he explores what it is to grow up queer and working-class around men, the trauma they inflict and the magic of having a brilliant Nan.

This show ain’t gentle.

This show contains explicit discussion of suicide, self-harm, abuse and domestic violence.

It is a work-in-progress sharing – unfortunately we weren’t awarded the funding we needed to make the show. We’ll be reapplying to make the full show next year but want to use this opportunity at CPT to develop the work that we feel passionate about.


Supported by CPT.

About the artist

Matty May is a working-class queer artist from Barking. Unashamedly common as muck, sometimes funny and often anxious. His work is honest, vulnerable and a little uncomfortable. Matty is the Associate Director of Scottee & Friends and a member of the Working Class Artists Group. 

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Image credit (c) Brian Teeling

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